Monday, September 24, 2007

Priorities....

Are you like me? Do you look at your life and wonder if you are doing things the right way? I have spent time over the past week or so looking at my life and wondering if I'm doing it right.

All I've truly wanted out of my life was to be a wife and mother. I think I am pretty good at both. However, on those days where the stress of other things in my life affects my relationships with my husband and children, I wonder if it's worth it. They are my highest priority (after God, of course).

If you've read my blog, you know I design mostly girls clothing and sell it on ebay. I love doing it! I enjoy creating, and I love the idea that others like my designs, as well. The thing is this: it stresses me out sometimes and I'm not the only one paying the price.

I have spent the last week trying to decide if I should just quit. For now, the answer is, "no." However, my priorities are starting to change. I don't spend as much time sewing as I used to. Last week I did an overhaul on my home and my husband said, "Wow! I think you need to quit sewing....I like you like this." Hmmmmm......

The thing is, I need the little outlet that sewing offers to me. It is a way for me to express my creativity and I love the ladies I chat with on a daily basis in my design group. It's just a little something for me.

I've kept going at it thinking that I would "make it big," and contribute mightily to the family income, but it hasn't happened. I don't know if it will. The thing is, I have changed my thinking about why I do it. It's for ME. Before, I could explain away all of my time spent sewing by saying, "It's for the family." Now, I know differently.

The point of this long and rambling post.....I'm not sure. I guess just a way to get out some of the things that have been floating around in my head.

I am a wife and mother. That is what I want to be....what I LOVE being. For enjoyment, I design and sew clothing.

This is an old picture, but one of my favorites:

2 comments:

Kari & Kijsa said...

You are truly talented! Your designs on e-bay are great....especially the one with the black shirt with the flowers and the three-tiered pants! It is challenging juggling time for your family and yourself. Just wanted you to know that we think you are special!

blessings, kari and kijsa

hollibobolli said...

That is a precious picture. I completely understand how you feel.. a lot of the things I love doing completely stress me out. I wonder why I continue doing them when I don't have to... but then what would I have to complain about? :)